Long busy day... but!!!

I really had a nice long busy day, I went to the city centre with some lovely friends. We had windows shopping, sat in Costa Waterstone branch for the sake of coffee. then went to the New Theatre at the university to watch a 3hr-play called "The Treatment", which was good but quite boring. At least we enjoyed our vision with some beautiful guys which I believe they are gay!

After that, we went with hungry stomachs to our friend's place to have dinner, shisha and watching a scary stupid movie ( I didn't watch the movie indeed since I closed my eyes the whole time, but who cares...I dont want to destroy my imagination of life even if its just a fake movie... I hate bloody scenes...yaaak)...

Now I am in my room, feeling something is missing... I really cant understand, with all these people in my life and with all the fun we are having, it is never enough!!!... Yes I do miss my family... I do miss them alot... but I dont think ill be more satisfied with them...

I am not searching for somebody... not in his presence... I simply can't think of others... Despite of these cold days we are having lately, I wish I can sleep in his arms without thinking of consequences... why cant it be this simple?

I can imagine myself three years later from now, in my way to airport, crying myself for the loss of his presence in my life... I know it is better for both of us this way but......

God...I feel I will explode...